3 weeks and CRAP

Well, i'd have blogged sooner but the SPAM-Bots thought my blog was a spam blog, so it had to be read by a REAL person to see that it wasn't just some crappy spam blog.
SO my OPK's came in the mail and i tested the HOUR they came and go figure it showed a dark line! so we kept testing and kept trying and hopefully this month will be the month! although i'm beginning to doubt it. i could be wrong, but i'm starting to feel those menstrual cramps coming on. hopefully they are just MOMMY type cramps. cross your fingers for me. my period is due tomorrow. I would LOVE to give my husband a postive pregnancy test for his birthday!
more tomorrow.

L

welcome,....first entry. WOW

There is so much on my mind right now I thought it would be a good and healthy thing to do would be to blog it. to put it out there. If only one person (besides me) is going through the same thing, then we know we aren't alone, right?

I'll give you a quick run down on my life. I met my husband in 3rd grade. I HATED him until highschool. He was the mean little kid who picked on you beyond the point of having a crush. Or so I thought. But we grew from friends into High School Sweethearts. He made me a CD to ask me out. That was March 1st, 2001. We've since had a few bumps in the road, but after a 6 month break-up, we found our way back to eachother days after a friends wedding. I caught the bouquet and he caught the garter. We danced and it was all over from there. He proposed in February 2005, cute and unexpected. In march of 2006, we found ourselves the proud parents of a springer spaniel mutt, Odin. He's tried our nerves with housebreaking, but the cuddles and kisses and fun memories more than make up for the sleepless nights we had with him as a little pup. We got married July 28th, 2007. In front of our family and friends. It's certainly been an eventful first year. We've had our ups and downs, we've suffered our losses and made it through it closer than ever.

My husband is a college graduate with a mechanical engineering major. In February he got a great job at a metal fabrication company as an engineer. He loves his job, and the guys he works with and it's a little more money in the bank. So we are looking at purchasing a house in the spring and we have since started trying to start our family. And there in lies the current thoughts in my mind. We have been trying since FEBRUARY. I have tried Basal body temping, smep, and finally 2 days ago, i broke down and bought some opk's. 9 month of trying! I can't help but wonder if there isn't a problem with one of us! I know Jeremy isn't as worried because all the books and websites say you shouldn't worry until its been a year and you haven't successfully gotten pregnant. I know a few months of stress here and there have been deterrents in our goal for baby-makin'. But COME ON! We've got a list of names, well, I DO. Because in AUGUST i was TEN DAYS LATE. It turned out that I was just LATE. We were very hopeful that it would finally be the month. And just so you know, i am NOT sharing my list. lol. I am unwilling to give anybody the idea to STEAL my names. HAHAHAHA. just kidding. I'll share next time or something. I just needed to get it out there that I BOUGHT ovulation prediction kits! I bought little sticks that i will religiously URINATE on so that I can have INTERCOURSE at the RIGHT TIME. lol. I am BOUND and determined to get pregnant this year. otherwise i'm looking at being pregnant durring the HOTTEST part of the year. Jeremy will attest that I am NORMALLY a moody, cranky person. Add pregnancy hormones to that and I'm sure I will drive him to drinking! So here's to peeing on sticks to correctly make the sexy time. and HOPEFULLY my mailed package with the pee sticks will get here soon. I have a VERY optimistic feeling about this month. So here is to lots of properly timed baby-making. YEEEEEAH!